It's only 3:44PM and it already feels like it's a long day. Too much stress here at work.  It's Wednesday today and it's the day when you would usually visit me here in AD. But of course, you won't be coming over anymore.  I wish you would as I need your arms to hold me tight and assure me that everything will be alright.  I miss you so much, Mahal.  I miss you everyday...

I've been talking to some friends and they told me to just move on and forget about you. They said to turn my back on you should you decide to come back.  My mind says "Yes, I won't fall for it again" but my heart says otherwise.  Tanga na kung tanga pero mahal na mahal pa din kita.  I wish I could teach my heart to stop loving you.  Kasi ang sakit-sakit na.  And everyday is a struggle for me to go on without you. I dream about you every night and as soon as I wake up, I think about you.  I still check on my phone to see if you've sent me a good morning message like you used to...pero wala.  Nakalimutan mo na ba ako?  Can you please teach me how you do it? Buti ka pa nagagawa mo.

You were sending me messages last night and the way you messaged me, para mo lang akong kabarkada.  It hurts kasi walang I love you, or yung pagtawag mo sakin ng Mahal pero nakukuntento na ako kasi you still take time to send me a message. Sobrang madalang nga lang. I wonder how often you send her messages or how often you call her. I'm sure it's too often.  I wish you could still do the same for me, kasi ako naman ang asawa mo di ba.  But how come I feel like ako itong nakikiamot at nagmamakaawa sa pagmamahal mo?  Oh, hindi mo na nga pala ako mahal. Sorry, nakalimutan ko.

Sana bukas nakalimutan na din kita. Yung tipong if magmessage ka sakin sasagot ako ng "Who is this, please?" Or tipong kaya ko na dedmahin na lang at wag kang sagutin.  Sana bukas na yun. Sana ngayon na...sana matapos na.