And so I've heard that you're going to US to visit your family. You did tell me before that you want to clear your mind and I suggested that instead of going home to PH, go to US instead.  I even told you I'll pay for your ticket just so your family who misses you will get to spend time with you.  The last time I asked you if your trip is pushing thru, you said you're not sure so I never brought it up again.

Your sister confirmed that you'll be in the US on the 26th of January and that she'll be meeting you in California with her kids.  She asked you about your flight details but you declined to give it.  Why?  I'm pretty sure it's because you'll be taking a flight from that airline where your woman is working.  You told your sister you'd be in the US for 3 weeks, but I got word from your office mate that you filed for a 1-month leave.  Sigh.

I asked you yesterday if your trip is pushing thru and you said yes, but you didn't give me details and in as much as I wanted to ask more questions, I chose not to. Because I'm sure you won't give me any.  I'm sure you remember I'm going on a trip too, pero ni walang "Ingat ka" or "Enjoy ka." Why do I still expect these from you when obviously, you don't care about me anymore.  You dumped me and chose her.  You do know I don't have a family here and that I came here to be with you, but you don't seem to mind that I am alone. Technically we're still husband and wife and I am your responsibility. But no, you just don't care anymore.

I try hard to understand what you're going thru and why you are doing this to me but I'm sorry because I just couldn't.  All I know is that you are in love with someone else and instead of working out our problem, you decided to drop everything that has got to do with me and move on with her. You did say you want to clear your mind and heal yourself but obviously, you just want me out of your way.  

Whenever I would start with my Why's and How's I tell myself that you are happy now, and that is all that matters.  I might have not been able to make you that happy for you to let go of me just like that. Maybe that's why.